Reflecting, Etc.

So I thought I would share a story that makes me happy just to think about, and perhaps gives a little window into our lives. I arrived on campus for New Student Orientation (NSO) at the small liberal arts college I was about to start attending, and had one primary objective on my mind: I wanted to find a husband. You might consider it sad, but it’s true. This was a very important thing on my mind. Because I wanted to share my faith with a future partner, I wanted …

I’ve been faced with a challenge that many women, especially women raised in traditional, conservative environments face: how to be both strong and feminine. It’s honestly something that has challenged me as much in my personal life as it is challenging me as I try to put my finger on the exact tone I want this blog to have. I want this to be a beautiful place, a gentle and kind place, and an affirming place. I want people to enjoy spending time on this site, and to leave it …

So I’ve been trying to decide what the purpose of this blog even is. I started it as a “bridge” in the Trump era- I though I’d try to speak to conservatives and liberals; try to somehow bring people together. Then I thought I’d talk about hot topics- that I’d talk about racism, Black Lives Matter, etc. I might still do that. I got spooked, because I’m white, middle class, and not the sufferer of racism in the US. Can I speak to something I don’t know? Am I supposed …

I have a problem. It’s something I’m working on. Whenever I start to feel happy, like really, really happy, a “voice” starts talking in the back of my mind. It reminds me of flaws, problems, and primarily things on to-do lists from years past. It reminds me of things I told someone I would do at one point in life, and then never did, and now there is no way I can do them. It reminds me of all kinds of little things I still feel guilty for that I …

Hi. So… I reached a writer’s block. Maybe six months ago, I started a series on race. My goal was to support the Black Lives Matter movement by taking a centrist position and describing underlying definitions of race and race relations. I’m going to admit that I bit off more than I could chew. I was trying to approach things from the middle- from a perspective that wouldn’t offend anyone, and would bring everyone together. As time went on, I started to feel my whiteness increasingly keenly. Someone seemed to …