(pic from jan) just felt like it was time I wrote about this. k. So overall, I would consider myself a big fan of sunsets. They typically are always a good thing. An excellent track record, that every time there is a sunset, it manages to be special, if we take the time to notice …
additional things
I’ve been listening to Millenium (Backstreet Boys) lately. It’s my go-to comfort music at the moment. It transports me, every time I listen to it. Sometimes it transports me to the past, and I remember what it was like when I first heard them in middle school. Today I pictured myself in an old-folks home, …
valentines
The past few days, the kids and I have been making valentines together. (cutting hearts out of art paper and water coloring them) drying added a dum-dum how they turned out (Also I now have Valentine Nails!) (You can’t really see it, but there are heart-shaped cherries on my toes!) Hope you’re ok.
friday
Today the sun came out and it was so beautiful. It rained some but then stopped. I love water droplets on things.
anticipatory grief: valentine’s day
Don’t hate me, ok? Ok. I love Valentine’s Day, because I’m a twee tweederdee at heart. Well. Not all the time but a lot of the time I’m a twee tweederdee at heart. I did make up that word. I feel like Valentine’s Day is a whole lot like Thanksgiving except for couples. There’s this …
stuff
I’ve been feeling a lot of pain, lately. Some of it’s physical, most of it’s emotional. Sometimes my humor runs thick, and sometimes I just glare at it, like, “No, you wanted to make a joke? Right now? How dare you.” Deflection and denial, my even self-gaslighting occasionally, to cope. I have grief ahead of …
um
(photo: backyard little flowers earlier this week) I see green leaf, white edge, pointy spikes, trying to catch the rain drops I hear thud thud drop I smell nothing. hence the cold my tongue wants real food my brain wants to fly I feel the keys under my fingers and this old chair and my …
♪ (how can i keep from singing)
I stayed up late tonight recording because I needed there to be something positive. This is How Can I Keep From Singing, arranged by Mark Patterson (link here to sheet music), Catharine’s Midnight and Starting To Get Sick Key/Version. My intonation isn’t always right, but c’est la vie. Also the ending is actually supposed to …
hey
(my Canon is broken so I’m left with washed out Pinephone selfies) How are you coping with things? Sometimes there is no way to cope with things other than continuing to exist. I suppose that is what coping actually means. To find a way through, or past, to simply persist in life. Usually when I …
thursday
It’s been kind of rough lately. Yesterday I went to pick up the kids and there were latex balloons in the office. I was wearing a respirator and my car was closed, but I still reacted (I had parked right outside the open door). I went home, showered, and changed my clothes. Thankfully it was …