reflecting on various topics
Do you ever feel like the pain of being alive is just too much? I don’t know what it is. Sometimes I think it’s hormones. Sometimes I think it’s empathy. Sometimes I wonder if it’s fibromyalgia (joke, but also I do have it so it can be honestly hard to know.. *laugh-cry*). Seriously though. I …
This might seem a bit weird but. I’m going to list these. By sense and ability. k. Do you have the ability to smell? Then here are some things to live for: the smell of bacon cooking in the morning the smell of a huge white blooming rose the smell of the ocean, salty and …
Well. I published that last post. *stares into the mirror of my psyche* It is so uncomfortable to say quiet thoughts out loud about the things I cannot know. It is so uncomfortable!!! I’m exploring why this is. It brings up a lot of grief to consider .. just the possibility that there might not …
Hi. There have been so many things on my mind lately. One of them is that we’re living right now. Along with that idea, is the fact that all friendships are friendships, whether they are with people you met in person or online. Another idea that I’ve been thinking about is the fact that most …
Today is a Tuesday. The picture is from a walk last night. This moment in time: sitting on the couch, wearing my favorite purple sweater, with my cat Atticus lying near me on the ground, floofy back towards me, floofy white inside his ears just *so.* I hear a bird outside cawing. The sun is …
I remember learning in Educational Psychology that the more options one has, the more stressful a decision is. It’s no wonder that “what do you want to do with your life?” “what color should we paint the livingroom?” and “out of all the people on the entire internet on dating websites, who can you see …
Since I was raised in conservative, somewhat legalistic religion, I was trained to have some particular thought patterns- to “take every thought captive” (2 Cor 10:5). To not lust. To *make my thoughts* be … something. Metacognition is thinking about thinking. It’s like one of those mirrors reflecting back another mirror. For anyone with a …
My cat inspires me. Atticus. He inspires me because he’s getting older and what he does differently, because of that, is rest more. When he’s tired, he lies down. When he wants to snuggle, he jumps up next to you, and sits on top of you. When he’s hungry, he goes to his food bowl. …
I don’t know about you, but I keep finding new ways to feel exhausted. It’s almost a game. How many ways can one feel exhausted? On the other hand, I’m also finding new ways to feel alive. Things like noticing that the neighbors have cool blankets on their porch. Hearing the variety of dog barks …
Tomorrow is my birthday. I will be 38. Can you believe that? Can I believe that? The correct answer is no, however yes, I can absolutely believe that, and I’m pretty sure everyone else who knows me can believe that, because my vibes have switched. At least, I think they have switched. Am I jaded? …
